Reflections on Home Print

Some reflections for you, Susa

How many poems have been written, pictures painted, songs written trying to describe the meaning of home. To me there’s something chemical about it. The light brown bark of the eucalyptus, the sappy green of its leaves, even the tainted blue acorns littering the field are in some weird way a part of me. We must share some molecular structure, some wavelength.

Who can tell me why I feel the way I do when I crumble a eucalyptus leaf in front of my nose and breath in the intense, acidic vapor? Neural connections are immediately drawn to the many times as a child I climbed up the massive eucalyptus in my back yard. At the same time I see and smell the memory of opening my clothes closet with the eucalyptus branch in the corner. It was my mom’s best method of keeping out the moths and helping my clothes smell fresh. The sensory reaction and the feelings of childhood that result must have a biochemical explanation. It’s not only the smells. It’s the pictures forming in my brain, the browns of the grass, the greens of the trees, the blues in the sky. Much more even than that. It’s the warm sensation on my face from the southern sun, the salty breeze against my arm.


There’s something more in the air that classifies it as my home air. Is it the atmospheric pressure here at sea level? I can’t put my finger on it, but if one feels noticeably different at 10,000 feet than at 200 then my body may well sense the difference here at sea level compared to the 1600 foot elevation in Heidelberg. The way the winds blow, the humidity in the air, the sounds, the smells, perhaps even the vibration of the soil - all these things are sensed by my body and are influencing my sense of well-being. Humans are extremely good at adapting to new environments, but not perfect. I can’t put my finger on it or give it a name but there are subtle, gut-level sensations being back home that I miss while living abroad.